Stepped out of hell

Who taught me? What I am following? That always brings about by consequences and fault of others and selflessness. However, being worthy and unworthy, but there is a God with us. Ultimately, one day, we realize and stepped out of hell and save ourselves.

The church taught me that
my body was a weapon,
and the consequences were always
my fault; 

the church taught me no matter
how good i was i was never worthy
of love because ultimately, I was flawed 
and unworthy of being saved and I should
be grateful that I had a god that was 
forgiving enough to accept me as is—

it's no wonder I always suffered with 
self-image and self-esteem and was riddled
with anxiety,

because the church taught you no matter
how good you did in life that none of it was
ever the effort of your hands, nor should you ever
be given any credit;

I am so grateful that one day I just woke up and decided
that I wanted to live my life differently, and I wanted to 
do what was best for me and I wanted to love myself and
be myself and live without fear of their hell because
hell is trying to be someone you are not in order to 
please others because some people will never be happy with
you, even if you did everything they think or said you should.

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